Blessed with Angels: Praises and Pictures

Two cardiology appointments ago, the hole in Josiah's heart seemed to be causing unoxygenated blood to be pumped into his body when he should be receiving oxygenated blood instead. Prior to that appointment the hole was not a concern (apparently many people have "holes" in their heart and are not affected by it). At that appointment, the cardiologist said that open heart surgery may be needed sooner than we were originally expecting. Well, praise God because at this most recent visit the hole was completely closed! Whoo hoo!! :)

We will continue to see the cardiologist for this pulmonary valve stenosis but praise be to God for closing that hole.

Love,
Cherie

P.S. Apparently you all were praying hard for Josiah's heart but not hard enough for Craig and I (read the last blog post) because man have we been butting heads... in a loving way of course (arguments are always so loving aren't they ;)). But seriously I had a wake up call the other day. It began like this, Daddy set Josiah up on a wooden children's chair (he cannot crawl up there himself but loves to sit on it) and then was left there (Josiah has very poor balance). First I heard a hard thud and then a loud cry/scream so I came running down the stairs yelling, "WHAT HAPPENED!!". Craig came running out of the kitchen toward Josiah very worried and said "It's ok buddy, I'm so sorry. It's ok.". At that point I was totally angry thinking I know exactly what just happened and that would have never happened if I was taking care of him. Craig had already picked up Josiah and I instinctively responded by again yelling "WHAT HAPPENED!! WHAT THE HECK WERE YOU THINKING!!?". Of course I already knew what happened so I grabbed Josiah (who was still screaming) out of Daddy's hands and tried to comfort him instead because I felt that Daddy had already injured him. I was irate at Craig and totally worried about Josiah. Iylah came down wondering what happened and witnessed me attempting to save Josiah from Daddy's arms. During that time I prayed that God would give Craig some brains. And what God answered out of that angry prayer was "Cherie, you have injured Josiah, Iylah, and Craig more by how you responded than Craig ever did by quickly leaving Josiah unattended". I questioned, "You (God) are saying that how I reacted was worse than Josiah falling head first onto the ground combined with his possible bleeding disorder creating poor clotting factors in his blood (due to Noonan Syndrome) which could lead to a huge array of very serious cranial hemorrhaging, i.e. bleeding in the brain if you did not understand that lingo God?!!?!". And of course with all graciousness He replied, "Yes. I will protect Josiah". In that moment it really all made sense. I worry so very much about Josiah as if I am in control of what happens to him. And my worries over Josiah are often at the expense of someone else. So pray that I really take God's words to heart and live it.